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. . . A h h h . . . O o o h h . . . . E e e h h . . .

I am but a speechless being now, void of emotions. Since the last post my life has degraded into what we refer to as a “crab shell”. I have avoided people, decreased my intake of food, increased my time on the computer and online, increased my reliance on my spectacles to the point where I can feel my eyes burning, and even reduced myself from a character I once was.

This, I repeat, this, is definitely not a continuation since my last post. I cannot gaurantee that it should continue anyway, since I have not yet reached the golden age of 20. Ahh, yes, the perfect round number, peak of teenage life and the start of pure adulthood, both coinciding yet repelling, a paradox worthy of it’s name. Unfortunately, I am not there yet. I am not worthy of it, yet.

To the point when I will be less full of myself, but not less a man, I shall not be responsible enough to do what I say, and act what I do. Cause everything I do now, deternmines the future. My future. Wish me luck.

When you’re 20 you start to feel the void in your life. You then continue to supress that void with everything you have, making excuses along the way just to make yourself feel a lil’ better. It doesn’t stop here, no, not now. The peak of your life. The pinnacle of your Modern-Age. The Nirvana of Earthly desires. Say what you want, they’re all synonymous to each other, as much as being siamese twins, maybe worse. Meaningless? I dare you to defy me!

Such are rantings of lunatics facing teenage-crisis. Ridiculous? No, far from it. It simply occurs unbeknowengstly, but since it is such an abstractive factor, it is hardly noticable. One can only assume a vague approximation, and not further than that. This brings us to something we call the “Life Cycle”, which can also mean “Karma Periods” or “Le Pomme” in French. True to its literal meaning, it simply means there is such a bodily function such that it moves not unlike the sine graph and it pin-points certain stages of a day where the ‘light” is at its peak or vice versa. I would like to explain more, but since I’ve almost reached the average limit of a post, I shall continue at another time. This, however, is not an example of procastination, I beg to differ.

Stage 1: I’m single.

Finally…. Finally… I’ve done something to the ICUMS site!! That’s a load of relief… and I knew I couldn’t go wrong when I chose Mumba as my preferred CMS choice… It’s customizable templates are just plain fantastic! Go see what I have done with them at http://www.union.ic.ac.uk/malaysia.

So, there goes 8 hours of non-sleep effort… I didn’t even get to play my favourite online RPG! If only people understand the sacrifice and horror I go through *shrugs* Aaah, rest is bliss… I’ll.. be.. off..zzZZZzZzzz **sleeps**